you choose

Along time pass since I heard the phone ringing, I don't know why I was so upset that day. Of course you know the feeling when you get up in the early morning. Sometimes, you don't want to talk with anyone or to hear anybody. It seems that you consider yourself still sleeping. But that day I felt so lonely .it is normal –sometimes- to be alone, but what is not normal is to be alone although you are surrounded by a big crowd. This day, I considered it would be like the last days, full of phone calls, and big banes, but in fact, no one talked. it seemed that I lived in an isolated land opposite the past.i turned to the phone as its silence extended abnormally for hours and hours, then I thought "well, maybe it is out of order, then I focused on my mobile, waiting it to give any ring or even amissed call, but my waiting seems to have no end and its silence increased, then I thought what if the net was busy as usual? Subsequently no one can call me."Ohh, yes.that is a good excuse" to let my mind calm, I convinced myself. so I turned to the door ,waiting a surprise or un expected visit from anyone as usual, but this reason also disappointed me, as no one came, I told me self it might be raining outside, but I didn't even try to look out from the window to keep myself still convinced that every thing is going alright .At the end of that day ,I learnt that you are the person who can make your life gloomy or rather satisfied ,you can make your life easy ,or make it complicated by getting angry from just trivial things ,,so you choose ,it is up to you